I have to-do lists a mile long both personally and professionally, but I felt the need to share. Today is July 1. My official start date as the “Interim Director at The Wesley Foundation at A-State.” I won’t say that I am naive enough to believe that I would somehow wake up feeling differently about my ministry or my ability to lead. Yet there was this inkling that somehow the official-ness of today would initiate some kind of shift. There is still time, I guess.
On Sunday, I sat in church listening to Brother John preach and heard a confirmation of my calling. He said that you do not want a pastor who believes they are entitled to their position or their pulpit. You want a pastor who doesn’t feel worthy of the position they hold, but tries their best and greets each day with humility. I feel like being at A-State is in some ways a coincidence. There are times when I think, if my DS and Bishop figured out I was running this joint, they’d definitely appoint someone else. Honestly, it is kind of overwhelming to think that I am responsible for the upkeep and maintenance of two buildings, the spiritual welfare of numerous college students, and the connectional ministry of a campus ministry to other churches in our district. I have more responsibility through my job than I do in my personal life- I’m a renter, currently single, and a hardcore introvert. How did this happen?
The truth is I don’t know. What I do know is that I am blessed beyond measure to be able to serve my denomination in this way. I am privileged to serve in a setting where I am able to fulfill my passion for reaching out to young adults in the church. I am certainly not entitled to be here. Yet, I am going to give this year my all. I can’t wait to see what it brings!
Trust yourself. You know more than you think you do. – Dr. Benjamin Spock (applicable to both child rearing and first year of ministry 🙂 )